Every year I fear it. I dread it absolutely. I wish I could just skip December entirely and go straight to January.
Every Christmas for the past 5 years have been AWFUL for me.
This year is no exception.
My father has terminal cancer caused by Asbestos exposure, and since the start of December has got just so much worse... They now think he could pass away at any time and is in a Hospice...
For the last 3 weeks I have been away from my house and Girlfriend, and been on a bedside vigil for my Dad... He is a fighter to the last, and is hanging on despite atrocious pain and suffering. I really am despairing as to it all, but know at the end of it I'm losing an amazing father...
We are only a small family (4 of us..), and having lost my Grandmother in August (see previous post), this all feels plain awful.
Please people, *try* to enjoy Christmas, and cherish the time you have with your loved ones and families... They are unique moments that will never come again.
Peace,
Marc
(For the record, my last 5 Christmas disasters:
2002 - Intensive care with my Dad...
2001 - I had a case of Double Pneumonia and Pleuracy
2000 - Caught in a Hurricane, had to try to stop the roof blowing off our house. (No I'm not kidding)
1999 - Broke up with Fiance of the time.
1998 - Dad had Cancer the first time...
Next year I think I'm hibernating, starting around October time...)
Every Christmas for the past 5 years have been AWFUL for me.
This year is no exception.
My father has terminal cancer caused by Asbestos exposure, and since the start of December has got just so much worse... They now think he could pass away at any time and is in a Hospice...
For the last 3 weeks I have been away from my house and Girlfriend, and been on a bedside vigil for my Dad... He is a fighter to the last, and is hanging on despite atrocious pain and suffering. I really am despairing as to it all, but know at the end of it I'm losing an amazing father...
We are only a small family (4 of us..), and having lost my Grandmother in August (see previous post), this all feels plain awful.
Please people, *try* to enjoy Christmas, and cherish the time you have with your loved ones and families... They are unique moments that will never come again.
Peace,
Marc
(For the record, my last 5 Christmas disasters:
2002 - Intensive care with my Dad...
2001 - I had a case of Double Pneumonia and Pleuracy
2000 - Caught in a Hurricane, had to try to stop the roof blowing off our house. (No I'm not kidding)
1999 - Broke up with Fiance of the time.
1998 - Dad had Cancer the first time...
Next year I think I'm hibernating, starting around October time...)